Well, my mom left this week. Sucks. I hate it. I hate that my parents live so far away. When I first moved here I thought that it would get easier as time went on and it has gotten so much harder. Especially now with a baby. I cried when my mom left. Not just because I would miss her, but because I know how much she will miss Charlotte and because I hurt for Charlotte to not have both sets of her grandparents close. I love that Scotty's parents and most of his family are close and that Charlotte gets to be with some of her extended family but I wish she had more time with mine. But with that said - I am flying home to VA next weekend and I am bringing Charlotte with me! Yay!- I think... I am nervous about flying on my own with her for the first time. But I have to learn sometime! I have really adapted the mindset that I want to do things on my own. I LOVE that people offer to help me - from family to the bag boys at the grocery store but I need to learn to do things on my own and prove to myself that I can do it. I know that this will only help my self confidence and help me to know that I can be a mommy!
Speaking of being a mommy - I was not showered, covered in throw up, and had been peed on all in one day and I thought, "yep, welcome to motherhood." Makes me smile : )
Things I have learned:
- Time now moves at warp speed. The days fly by and I have no idea where they have gone or what I have done to show for it!
- The baby is going to cry and I have no reason why. She has this blood curdling scream, that she does, the kind where she is crying so hard that no sound is coming out. Absolutely heartbreaking. I was assuming it was a pain cry and I was trying to figure out what I was doing wrong but it turns out it is also the I am EXTREMELY mad right now cry.
- I will learn what the different cries mean. I didn't think that would ever happen.
- Sleep is over rated. I am doing quite well with my new schedule and I am very proud of that : ) Anyone who knows me knows how important sleep is to me. Charlotte is making it VERY easy for me to adjust because she is sleeping so well - pray that keeps up.
- Babies go through more diapers than I could have possibly imagined. Like 12 or so in a day. Wowza. I'm guessing that is where that time flies to - diaper changes.
- People will still say offensive things to you, even after the baby comes. Things like, "oh, I didn't know that was your baby. You look like you are still expecting." Thanks jerk.
- You can do a lot with one arm. Most of the time my left arm is filled with a baby. : )
I am sure that there are more things that I have learned so far but the most important has been to trust my gut and that motherhood is the most rewarding thing ever. I know that she needs me but some times it still blows my mind that she knows that I am her mother. No one else. There are times that she just wants me. How awesome is that?!
Scotty's parents put on a dinner every week during the season for all of the coaches' families. This week was Charlotte's first one! She was a hit! Everyone loved her and she was so good. I was so proud! The coaches wives were so sweet and they had a diaper shower for me. I must have gotten 15 or so different boxes and packages of diapers in all different sizes plus some other goodies and wipes
Well, that is all for this week. Here are some pictures : )
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| These pictures are from the coaches family dinner. |
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| Grandmommy and Granddaddy |
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| Aunt Melissa |
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| Diaper table |
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| Cousin Davis |
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| Mommy and Daddy's Pumpkin : ) |
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| Bath Time |
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| These get progressively cuter : ) |
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| Crazy face! I made a face like this when I was little. It was called my Popeye face : ) |
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| Sweet lil' Gamecock! |
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| 3 weeks old!! |
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